So i have about 3 weeks left before i leave, and im really feeling it now. I think it hit me last night, when me and jessica were sitting in the booth at work (it was raining...i cant cut anything down in the rain), and i started to look at the July schedule to map out all of the things i need to do before i leave, which is quite a bit. She started to get sad. I asked "why are you sad?"...stupid question. I'm going to be out on a ship for nearly 5 months, not seeing her. Like i said, dumb question, obvious answer. she didnt need to say it.
I have things that must be done before i leave (IE school assignments, physicals, shots, etc...), but i don't want her to feel left out in the remaining days. I feel like we spend a lot of time together just hanging here, going out, riding bikes, and numerous other things, but i'm wondering if its what she is looking for...what can i do to show her that i feel the same way she does about me leaving? Of course i don't want to not see her for that period of time, or not talk to her every night before sleep, or when i get up...Its all a bummer, but August 7th will be here before we know it, whether we want it to be or not...We can be sad about it and sit still, or we can take action, plan out what to do, and when to do it, and enjoy the time we have. It's hard for me to think in a negative way...and maybe thats a fault of mine. Sometimes you need to in order to see both sides, but...its not me, i guess. I think things are going to be ok. we will be with each other a lot, and i'm going to do everything in my power to make it count. I hope she agrees with me on that....i think she does.
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Josh - Write her notes. Not multi-page letters, just a note about how you feel about her. Write a bunch, stream-of consiousnes style. Now hide them around or have a friend give them to her over a period of time. Or date them and have her open them at a specific time.
This might work better when you're gone, but Cheryl likes things like that. Once I left a message for her at the hotel where she was staying in Italy. When she came down in the morning, the desk gave her the simple, one-sentence message. Those things help a lot, I've found.
Brian
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